On
my way to deliver the letter with the magic EIN number on it, I
looked at my truck radio display and it read 3:33. My wife, whom was
at home, looked at a digital clock at that same moment. The radio
station 93.3, that I was listening to had decided to play Metallica's
"Sad But True" for the journey. I pulled into the post
office and watched that letter go down the post office box memory hole as
the last chord from that song rang out. That song from my youth,
when I was angry about life. It was cleansing.
Days
before my 32nd birthday I placed my resignation letter on my
supervisor's desk. This was more than just a resignation from the
career I had worked for 6 years as a street medic for Piedmont EMS in
the Upstate of South Carolina. This was my Resignation from the Matrix, which
was picked up by Michael Ruppert and published on collapsenet as a
free feature article for several months. It wasn't particularly well
written, because I wrote it one night half drunk as a journal entry,
and then emailed it to Ruppert. Apparently he read it and liked it.
I worked a one month notice because that's what my supervisor asked
of me. Her point was that I was going on vacation for two weeks on
the next day, and so would I actually "work" a two week
notice. Just days before resigning from my career I signed up to
take part in a Permaculture class in Asheville NC called
"Permaculture In Action." It was a 10 day, hands on,
gathering of like minded people spread over five weekends from May to
August. We learned permaculture methods while implementing design
from paper to the land. We didn't create the designs, the
instructors did. This was to be my new career. Permaculture. I
resigned from the Matrix so that I could take permaculture seriously
and devote all of my free time to it.
Starting
in 2007, after reading James Howard Kunstler's, The
Long Emergency, and
gettin' edumacated to the concept of Peak Oil, I learned that
infinite growth on a finite planet results in a particularly sordid
predicament, and what was I going to do about it? Our civilization
is completely dependent on a shrinking non-renewable resource. Look
around you and notice all of the objects in your view. It's a safe
bet that every single one of those objects has been in a trailer on
the interstate at some point on it's likely over 2000 mile journey to you. It's also
another good bet that some part of all of those objects has been on a
large container ship from China as well. The power you are using to
participate with your computer, the cup of Joe you're enjoying, and
the food that keeps you alive, all have fossil fuel energy in common
(even nuclear power is not possible without fossil fuel energy...at
least as it's currently practiced). We have built our modern day
global civilization on a limited resource! There are a LOT of
ramifications from this one easily understood fact that's placed on
us by the mandates of our physical reality.
Nearly
five years after reading Kunstler's eye opening book, I was in front
of my supervisor turning in my resignation. Five years of rabidly
searching for the answer to the question "what am I going to do
about our infinite growth paradigm on a finite planet?" I had
become a father, and now the ante was raised by several orders of
magnitude. In a label, permaculture was what I found to be the
answer. Permaculture actually addresses a future where there is no
longer any affordable fossil energy. It realizes the precarious
nature our free energy inheritance is leaving us in. Staying alive
as a material being requires energy via food. All 8 billion of us
stay alive right now because we still have the cheap energy to run
the large tractors and combine harvesters, and to manufacture and use
the petroleum based pesticides, fungicides, herbicides, and natural
gas based fertilizers. Our agricultural land has become a moonscape
of dead dirt that does nothing other than act as a chemical sponge.
Nothing can live in the dirt except for the genetically modified
organisms that we've created to withstand the chemical onslaught.
The bulk of the calories that keep us alive, the wheat in our pasta
and bread, the rice in our bowl, the soy bean baby formula in our dairy allergic newborns, and the
hundreds of corn derived ingredients in the nutrition free high
fructose petroleum sugar, and the animal meat that you eat are all
possible because of our massive monocroped agriculture which requires
petroleum energy to exist. Permaculture recognizes that this is not
a sustainable arrangement.
Even
the "organic" agriculture in this country is really just
the same old "green revolution" shit dressed up in a
delusional "we're gonna save the Earth" drag. They spray
chemicals just like their Monsanto dependent counterparts. Granted,
it's better than conventional agriculture, but it's still not enough.
It's not "sustainable." Monoculture agriculture, devoid
of the cheap energy, collapses under the weight of it's own
gargantuan flesh. Permaculture provides the answers to this mess
we're in. I'm always weary of saying such a thing. That this or
that provides ALL of the answers, but it's true in this case...this
is a too good to be true actually being true. Mark Shepard, the
architect of "New Forest Farm" and author of Restoration
Agriculture, provides
proof to my claim. Perennial forest agriculture is a sustainable
practice that is capable of withstanding a changing climate. It can
provide us with the calories and nutrition that we need to live. The
bulk of the calories in this system come from perennial tree nuts and
animal products like milk, eggs, and meat. Petroleum inputs of any
kind are not necessary (although they sure do help getting the system
up and matured). My point is, Permaculture provides the solutions we
need for the post-petroleum world that we're standing on the brink
of. I know of no other entity which can make this claim.
Given
that you understand the predicament we are in as a global
civilization, and given that you want to do something about it rather
than nothing, what are you going to do? Permaculture can save us,
but it can't save us if we don't practice it and implement it on our
landscapes. I have two children now, Ayden Zen whom is 3 and Harper
Tribann whom is 5 months. They are collectively the most beautiful
thing I have ever done (aside from the Goddess I did to create them).
Next to my family the most beauty I have ever created I have done in
my backyard using permaculture principles. I have no doubt in my
mind that given enough time I'll be able to use this 1.6 acre lot
(and hopefully the six acres that surround the Fox Den that are
currently owned by in-laws) to keep my family thriving, alive and
healthy, and to create a surplus to share with the surrounding
community. I'll be doing this using permaculture principles and
strategies. Permaculture may not provide my family and I with the
money we need to buy the things we buy in this current perpetual
growth paradigm, but it will provide us with the food, medicine, raw
natural materials, shelter, energy, and community that we need to
live a life that is more than worthwhile, but exciting and full of
meaning. With any luck it will keep my tribe out of any kind of
government line.
I have concluded that there is
no better way to spend my time than permaculture. I can practice it
every day in the company of my family while creating beauty and
regeneration. I believe that is possible. It's already happening.
My plan has been a two pronged plan. Practice permaculture and go to
school for a nursing license in order to ensure my family will have
access to the digibits that are required of us. The problem with
this plan is that it lands me in another wealth care career that I
will not be able to stomach. I burned out after six years on the
meat wagon. But I didn't burn out because of the death, disease, and
destruction that comes with knowing the Reaper intimately. I loved
that part of the job. I revealed in getting to know what the Grim
Reaper actually looks like, and I even got in a few fights with him.
A quick anecdote from my real past:
I managed to kick the Grim Reapers ass out of the back of my meat wagon once. He made himself my business when someones grandma dropped dead while shopping
at Walmart. She walked out of the hospital a couple of months later
on her own two legs (well, she was wheeled out cause it was hospital
policy, but she was able to walk). One time in six years I actually
got a "save." I burned out due to the bureaucratically
generated bull shit that came from the Bull Shit Black Hole that
feeds our wealth care system. We went from being taught that our job
began and ended with "patient care" to being told that we
were responsible for the happiness of our "customers."
That is how our rotten health care system looks at you now. You are
no longer a patient to heal, but a customer to keep happy. That's
because the lawyers, medical insurance, and big international
pharmaceutical companies dictate the nature of our wealth care. It's
ALL about making money. End of Subject.
I'm not plugging back into the Matrix. I'm going
all rogue Permaculture on the Matrix's ass. And at any rate I
destroyed the ports on my physical body that allow me to plug back
in, anarchy happened to my Matrix equipment. I'm a permanent
inhabitant of what Jason Heppenstall calls Realandia.
The
place you come to inhabit when you take the red pill. People are too
afraid to do anything meaningful about our meaningless perpetual
growth paradigm. I'm no longer afraid. I was recently told that
I've "got some balls" to do what I'm doing. Giving the
Matrix the finger and all. I responded to that claim, "well,
they stuck my ass in a solitary cell, and fed me nothing but bread
and water, due to my protest about killing thousands of people via
bombs from the jets launched off of the US Navy carrier I was
splitting atoms on...so I guess I know what I'm up against."
Maybe I do have some balls, but I don't frame it that way. I see it
as that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. It is my
responsibility to help in this transition that our species is going
through. I have the tools and the mindset. I have the training. In
truth, I have been bred for this my entire life. I have been
searching for something worth my time ever since I can remember.
Even EMS failed me, and I was able to find myself in a moral dilemma
with being the help?!?! That speaks volumes to me.
This is not my resignation to
the Matrix. I turned that in already. This is my "fuck you"
to the Matrix. I'm not afraid of you. What I am afraid of is what
you're ensuring will happen if I, and many people like me, don't
do...something. If we don't resist your stupid dictates than we will
get what your incompetence has planned for us all. We will get a
climate that won't support human life, we'll get more and more super
bugs resistant to our drugs and chemicals, we'll get nuclear
contaminated radioactive material blanketing the globe (this has
already happened...did you know that 14,000 deaths in America are
attributed to the fall out from Fukishima Daiichi), we'll get a
completely collapsed fishery as our ocean loses the ability to buffer
the carbon levels due to acidification thanks to our dependence on
petrochemicals, well get more and more neutered and dysfunctional
governments, well get less and less nutrition in our food, and we'll
get sicker and sicker as Big Pharma crams more and more
frankenchemical fukitol derivatives down our collective throats. The
Matrix has no answers for a world on the backside of perpetual
growth.
I
will not be acquiring a mursing license from the Ministry of Health.
From this point forward I will be practicing permaculture principles.
I'm now an agent for a non-profit corporation called the SUN
Foundation (sustaining universal needs). The foundation is
headquartered here, at my current residence in the Palookaville
sector of Whoville. I have a gaggle of geniuses on my side over at
the Doomstead Diner. Essentially the Diner has become a think tank.
We talk about Realandia
and
what we're going to do and are doing about it. The SUN Foundation is
the result of more than a year of this think tank activity. It has
fermented into the SUN and I am one of it's agents. I believe that
the SUN Foundation is a magnate that is attracting the most brilliant
thinkers and doers available.
We have members in Australia (which is
good due to it being in the southern hemisphere, away from the
potentially 15,000 times more nuclear radiation than the atom bombs
dropped on Japan, ending the second world war, that is damn near fated to happen with one of the next earth quakes, or tsunamis, that are happening at increasing frequencies around Japan), England, and all over
the U.S. Our ideas and tactics will go viral and we will make the
Matrix obsolete. We're attempting to use the Matrix against itself
by playing the game by their stupid rules. If you're interested in
learning more about the SUN Foundation (we're still working on the
website because we just got incorporated) you can go here and read
till your hearts content. We're gonna fix this mess one tree at a
time. One durable and inexpensive shelter at a time. One Foxstead
at a time.
But
my Fox Den is still alive and thriving, and it's beginning to
multiply and grow. Like Gremlins, the more bull shit they get on us,
the more we will become. The Fox Den is metamorphosing into a
Foxstead which will in turn replicate into many Foxsteads. Or I'll
fuckin' die trying. They're gonna have to pry my cold dead fingers
off of this Fox Den. I've got a Vixen and Kits to keep healthy and
happy, and I've got a community to build that can withstand the
post-petroleum future they are guaranteed to inherit. What are you
gonna do about that? Dear reader!
6 comments:
Excellent post Lucid! I would love Fox Wood to be in some way affiliated with SUN. BTW one thought that immediately springs to mind is to get physical postal addresses for participating 'nodes'. That way, if electronic communication packs up and goes then people will still be able to find their way there, or communicate with one another.
I am also planning to do a premie design course and then use Fox Wood as a teaching base. Plenty of things have been happening there of late. I have some new neighbours doing the same sort of thing. They scrimped and saved to buy the woodland (they are both quite young, late 20s) and live in a converted truck.
Right on cue the local Tory nimby has turned up and started threatening us. A newsletter has gone round and some people want the council to turf us off our own land!! Apparently, according to these people, it's okay to won land as long as you use it for monoculture or pheasant shooting, but using it sustainably is not allowed. Especially if you have dreadlocks, like my neighbour.
It's all gone up a gear. We have to go on a charm offensive, and then it will probably go to court. It's insane, but then insanity rules the day at the moment. I jut hope the council and courts run out of money soon and can't afford to chase down people like us with their petty rules designed to keep the land in the clutches of the wealthy.
That's horrible Hepp. But all we can do is courageously continue following our moral North. That is the only chance we have. Turn around, and walk away from the Matrix, and do it now!!
It's passive resistance really. If enough people catch on (and that 100th monkey ain't far at this point) then they won't have the ability to imprison us all.
But this morning I was having this thought "are my children better in a free world without me, or a dystopian New World Bravely with me? My first reaction is that they are better with a father then without one...but at some point that is no longer true. Not that I'm planning on martyring myself, but passive resistance is enough for them to put you away.
At any rate, I'm not going to bend over and let these assholes destroy the planet without at least attempting to follow my bliss and have faith that doing so, in service of the Goddess, will result in health and regeneration and not a prison cell.
But I am not afraid, because somebody has to not be afraid, somebody has to plant the first tree in the Sun Youth Rebellion (which youth in this point having nothing to do with age and everything to do with possibility).
hey LD,
Followed the link from DD.
Ive gotta say its impossible to say whether its wise to not follow through on the mursing.
Getting out of debt and growing your own food and cutting fuel use etc can cut right down how much money you need. Then to do that properly I dont think it can be done just on weekends, you need to do it every day. Anyway Im a firm believer that people now have to get out of the mindset of regular paycheck with paid holidays and benefits. People need to be entreprenuerial and identify niches they can fill. Between the saving of being self sufficient and plugging niche opportunities, I think people can get by.
33 is a master number in numerology. Its my sisters life path number. Dont be surprised if you start seeing it everywhere like I do 22. or 11:11 etc.
33 upside down on an angle is sort of like FF, thats Family First which is the meaning of it. Doing whatever it takes to make sure they make it. Feels good dont it?
Hey Hep,
Ive read some of your work, got giddy with glee reading your own resignation cashing out article as I totally related to it. Im about your age and have just done exactly what you have done. Turned my back on being defined by my job and all the shiny shit asociated with so called success to take on trying to start a self sufficient farm in a remote rural locale.
Never anticipated such things as smelling like goat piss walking into the bank after pressure washing out a "stock trailer" before returning it to the hire place, and the wind and splashback semi soaking my jeans. Or wtf one chicken wont get off the nest and the rest lay eggs on top of her which she then sits on, so I get to eat none. But its all good fun. So I call the farm "The Asylum", where anyone likewise crazy can so seek asylum.
hey LD,
Followed the link from DD.
Ive gotta say its impossible to say whether its wise to not follow through on the mursing.
Getting out of debt and growing your own food and cutting fuel use etc can cut right down how much money you need. Then to do that properly I dont think it can be done just on weekends, you need to do it every day. Anyway Im a firm believer that people now have to get out of the mindset of regular paycheck with paid holidays and benefits. People need to be entreprenuerial and identify niches they can fill. Between the saving of being self sufficient and plugging niche opportunities, I think people can get by.
33 is a master number in numerology. Its my sisters life path number. Dont be surprised if you start seeing it everywhere like I do 22. or 11:11 etc.
33 upside down on an angle is sort of like FF, thats Family First which is the meaning of it. Doing whatever it takes to make sure they make it. Feels good dont it?
Hey Hep,
Ive read some of your work, got giddy with glee reading your own resignation cashing out article as I totally related to it. Im about your age and have just done exactly what you have done. Turned my back on being defined by my job and all the shiny shit asociated with so called success to take on trying to start a self sufficient farm in a remote rural locale.
Never anticipated such things as smelling like goat piss walking into the bank after pressure washing out a "stock trailer" before returning it to the hire place, and the wind and splashback semi soaking my jeans. Or wtf one chicken wont get off the nest and the rest lay eggs on top of her which she then sits on, so I get to eat none. But its all good fun. So I call the farm "The Asylum", where anyone likewise crazy can so seek asylum.
UB
I feel your hesitation UB. Believe me...I feel it...but it's not in my bones.
This is a youth rebellion. I'm just preparing the energy by way of food that will be needed to fuel it. Cause petroleum sure as hell ain't gonna feed it.
And I'm following my bliss...so I'm certain due to the faith in what it means to follow that bliss. It's a leap of faith. That doing what I'm supposed to be doing will result in my getting what I, and my tribe, needs.
I had the thought the other night, over some craft beers, that I am right because I AM righteous.
Righteousness requires courage and confidence. I have those things. Otherwise I would never have put myself in a solitary cell receiving nothing but bread and water.
I'm just like you, UB, doing the best I can...righteously.
You're doing the right thing since it would be almost immoral to raise kids within the system as it is at this point. Of course, people who decide to stay on the gird still need to do whatever they can to take their freedoms back since newer generations will be raised to think things have always been this way by the time they're all gone.
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