Initially Roamer was looking to locate the foxstead somewhere in the
upper mid-west. No sooner than I showed interest in the idea, Roamer
coughs up a connection for a location for the foxstead 47 miles away
from my house. 150 acres in the hills outside of Appalachia complete
with a spring fed pond (which some call a lake...to me it was a large
pond). Within a week GM (Gypsy Mama, my wife and member of the
Diner) and I were on our way to check the land out on the ground.
The land owners were a couple who had been married for 30 something
years. Jason was 71 years old, and his wife (later to be dubbed "Cat
Food Carol") was 61. They were looking to leave the land to a
trust made up of people who would ensure that it would never be
developed. That it would remain a sanctuary for flora and fauna.
GM, my son's Zen, in-utero Tribann and I walked the land. It was
nothing short of perfect for the foxstead location. After we walked
the land we all sat in their off grid reclaimed barn turned home and
talked about the prospect for a foxstead on their land.
Zen and Dad |
The only issue that emerged during that first meeting was the fact
that Cat Food Carol wanted the land to be a vegetarian utopia. A
place where her cats get to eat as much highly processed Concentrated
Animal Feeding Operation floor sweepings turned cat food as they
could stuff in their fat cat bellies, while the foxstead crew all
chewed on pine needles for sustenance during the starving times.
However, during this first meeting I had a chance to corner Cat Food
Carol in a trap of her own hypocricy. "I see that you feed your
cats meat! So it's alright for cats to eat meat but not humans? Is
that what you are saying?" She had told me that her concern
with slaughtering on the land was the karma she would acquire by
allowing it to happen. "I mean, if karma is your concern it
seems sort of strange that you are buying meat to feed your cats.
Doesn't that incur at least an equal amount of karma related to death
and the killing of animals by humans for food?" She hemmed and
hawed for a minute and then miraculously her phone rang "saved
by the phone" is what she said as she scurried off to her get
out of hypocrisy free moment with a large shit eatin' grin. There
was much to talk about, and so Jason and I continued the conversation
in a different direction. You see, Jason wasn't concerned about the
vegetarian utopia, just that the land be stewarded responsibly. When
Carol came back to the conversation it was already on the question of
how many people they would be cool with living on their land. I told
them that 10 able bodied men along with their families would be a
good estimation for our group. That would be around 40 people.
Neither one of them so much as blinked at the idea. They had no
problem with it. After that first day, I mistakenly figured, given
that Carol was at least open minded enough to allow a conversation in
which her hypocrisy was challenged, that we could come to an
arrangement on the vegetarian issue that would work. She wasn't
trying to make the foxsteaders vegetarian, she just didn't want any
"slaughter on the land." That's exactly how she put it.
She didn't care if we bought meet at the store and ate it on their
land...she just didn't want any slaughter.
Jason and I walking the land on the first visit |
The foxstead crew talked about it and we figured we could just sell
the excess bulls off when we needed to cull. We thought there was a
way to work around this one issue since it was the only issue.
Outside of Cat Food Carols delusion about how life works, what with
requiring death for life and all, it was beyond perfect. I should
have seen through her shit, but I didn't. I called Roamer and told
him to come on down to check it out in person. I told him that I
didn't think the vegetarian issue was an unworkable impasse. It
turns out my judgment of Carol's character was dead wrong. I thought
her heart was in the right place, and that she was reasonable and
logical enough to see that she was being unreasonable. This one
decision was a mistake. GM knew it to. She tried to tell me on the
drive home that her intuition didn't feel good about Cat Food Carrol.
I assured her that we could make the foxstead work here. We had to
make it work. My desire to meet the challenges of the trifecta were
overriding my sound judgment. I couldn't see that at the time.
There was simply too much synchronicity occurring for this to not be
the location of the foxstead.
The next week Roamer flew down to have a look at the land in person.
Roamer, his girlfriend, and my family met near the land at a coffee
house so that we could meet in person before going to the property
(as far as I know this is the first time that two Diners have met in
person...which if nothing else at least made the Diner a bit more
real in reality. Roamer has since been to my house for beer, brauts,
and conversation around my fire pit). Our group chemistry was
amazing. Zen even sat at a table and played with chess pieces and a
deck of cards by himself while we talked (he's two and a half).
After a couple of hours visiting at the coffee shop, we drove on to
the property. When we arrived the previous stewards were there (a
couple with a 3 year old daughter whom I will call the Stewards).
They had left the land, along with leaving their tiny house, for a
farm down the road that was paying them 10 dollars an hour. GM was
picking up overwhelming distress signals from Mrs. Steward that were
directed at us and pertaining to Cat Food Carol. I was too
interested in Carols complete 180 in attitude to notice her signals.
For about ten minutes everybody introduced themselves and several
conversations got going. The vegetarian issue came up again, only
this time Cat Food Carol had a different tone. It was now an
unmovable and ideologically rigid position. Now, any goats or sheep
that we may need to cull would have to be done in an impossible way.
Now she was saying that the only way she would allow us to keep
livestock on the land, you know to build soil to assist in growing
food for human consumption, would be if we placed all of the piss
scented billy goats in a home where they would be "pets".
Meanwhile, my son Zen, grabbed that beautiful little girl's hand (the
3 year old daughter of the Stewards) and they walked off into the
forest together. All present melted with the beauty of that moment.
It seemed an amazing omen. Filled with hope from watching my son and
his first girlfriend loving each other, I sat Cat Food Carol down to
get to the bottom of the issue, since it was the only issue with the
potential to stop the foxstead.
This is how I addressed the issue. "I understand where you are
coming from Carol. I was a vegetarian once for a year due to
spiritual reasons. I know what that's about. And I promise you that
we will respect your wishes." I was giving her my best
seriously pious look while looking into her eyes...I meant what I
said and I wanted to ensure that she knew that. "However, I
just need to know that in the event our group is starving you will
allow us to start low on the food chain if need be. For instance, we
could start by just fishing the pond (a pond that they had stocked
years before), eating frogs, or perhaps squirrel. Maybe even just
one of our chickens." By this point others in the group had
heard the conversation, grown interested, and had come over to be a
part of it. I want to be clear that we would only do this if we were
starving. "Would you be okay with us harvesting from the land
if we were starving?" To which she replied, "no, I don't
think I would be. I believe that our species is going to have to
evolve to a point where we no longer need to eat our brothers and
sisters." What could I say to that? I said nothing.
Ironically, just after this conversation she wanted to show Roamer
and I her studio (she's a painter), and while she was showing us
around she opened up a container of dead animal and fed her
cats...right in front of us. She looked me in the eyes as the ground
up, god knows what organs, hit the paper plate. She had no shame.
Behind her I noticed a pile of about 500 of these cat food containers
that were empty.
Shortly after this incident, while walking the land, Jason took
Roamer and I off to the side to tell us something important. "I
know my wife is unreasonable with her vegetarian requirements, and I
want you guys to know that I'll do everything I can to help mitigate
her. If it were up to me I'd let you guys do this however you wanted
to." Just after telling us that he told me that he had "memory
problems." I investigated further and was able to determine
that he had been diagnosed with Dementia. It was at that point
that I realized this would never work. There is a lot more I could
say about what happened that day, like the ruins that we saw on the
property, but the point is to just illustrate what happened and why
the foxstead did not come to exist. GM and I had to leave before
Roamer and his girlfriend because I had homework as well as two exams
to study for the next day.
During the time the Diner thought it was going to have a home for
it's foxstead, a lot of plans were made. There was a lot of hope and
a lot of dreaming going on. But what were we hopeful for and what
were we dreaming about? We were hopeful that there could be a way
forward that doesn't depend on BAU in a dead paradigm. Apparently
thinking that growing food without petroleum inputs is possible, is a
delusion. Well, that is if you don't have money to buy land. That's
what it has come down to. The foxstead has been stopped dead in it's
tracks just now because of money. The one thing that is fit to
explode into pointlessness over mismanaging the resources of an
entire planet. The one thing that is collapsing as I type. The one
thing that doesn't matter at all where nature and it's processes are
concerned. The one thing that there is an overabundance of just now
that could easily buy the foxstead location. That's the one thing
that's stopping the vision that is the foxstead from happening.
So what is the foxstead? There are many projects and ideas
composing the foxstead. Just for something to grasp and invision,
I'll paint a picture of what it could be given the foxsteaders are
helped rather than hindered. Imagine a greenhouse that is dug out
into the earth. Inside this "greenhouse" is many methods
of generating heat. Rocket mass stove, large containers of rainwater
to collect the sun's energy passively (as well as strategically
placed thermal mass like stone), and compost, and all of this
emitting heat. The heat will rise and travel through a series of
turbines that will generate electricity. Around this structure, this
earth work power plant, will be dwellings built inexpensively with
materials that are resilient. The homes will get heat, electricity,
and hot water all from the power plant. Outside the homes will be
many gardens kept by the inhabitants of these homes. These gardens
will not require petroleum inputs. Further out from these gardens
will be pasture for raising livestock via intensive grazing. Still
further out will be agroforestry producing food for the foxsteaders
in the forest surrounding the foxstead. There will also be
hydroponics and aquaponics using surface water on the land, as well
as many other types of renewable power generation such as small scale
wind and microhydroelectric. All of this exists in the minds of the
foxsteaders. All of this needs to exist but it's birth is being
stunted by money and a dead paradigm. All of this could easily be a
reality given the right amount of money (and not much
either...probably in the neighborhood of $100,000 would buy the land
and leave us with enough money to build the power plant and get a
hydroponic operation off the ground).
The foxstead is a chance for hope to arise in the now. All that we
want to do is to address the energy constrained reality that we're
already in. Rather than just resign ourselves to the dominant
reality of fukitol and the rat race. Rather than waiting to be
stuffed back into the Matrix and it's hologram, we are daring to
dream that something else is not just possible but desirable and
likely. A way forward that has a future and who's reality doesn't
hinge on expensive fossil fuel energy. There is no reason the
foxstead can't exist in reality. The only thing stopping it is money
and the fact that even the would be foxsteaders are rapidly loosing
hope. The foxstead is the right thing to do for the sake of the
Earth and humanity. Somebody has to rise up to the challenge to lead
those of us paying attention into a workable solution to our
predicament. The goal of the Diner is to "save as many you
can." If you know that there is a reason to be saved, than why
are you not helping the solution to our predicament to descend down
from our collective mentalscape and into reality.
If we do not address the fact that BAU is dead, and then address the
solutions to that knowledge, than we are just so many zombies just
like the rest of them. We might as well crame fukitol down our
throats, let the Diner die, and get on with the death that is assured
for our children by a destructive BAU. I hopeless landscape ruled by
chemical poison, a dead ocean, no trees left in the Amazon, and no
air left to breath. These are the stakes that the miniscule thought
of the foxstead are up against. For my part, I'm refusing to give up
on the foxstead. I've seen no better solution, and I've got
children. My children need something to believe in. They need
something worth caring about and hope for our species. What about
your children? Don't they need the same thing? I'm still waiting
for the help we need to make the Foxstead a reality. If you don't
agree with this solution than please offer something up. I'm all
ears.
The fact is that we can't afford to ignore what are collective apathy
continues to allow as reality. We have to do something while we
still have the fuel to do it, and so what are we waiting for?
Another Cat Food Carol and her delusional delusions of a world where
life can exist without death? Or rather a world where life no longer
exists on Earth because death has become complete. Where it was made
possible because we were to scared to live. To afraid to take
responsibility for what it means to be awakened to our predicaments.
What does that make us? Knowing what will happen if we don't do
something and yet continuing to do nothing. Talk is cheap. We need
to redouble our efforts and yet we are giving up. Where are all of
those helping hands that are supposed to arrive when you follow your
bliss Joseph Campell? You're dead now...can't you put a good word in
for us?
You can find out more about the Foxstead Project at the Doomstead Diner.
The above link will take you to the "Community Owned Doomstead" thread in the Doomstead Diner's forum. Where the idea was born.
You can find out more about the Foxstead Project at the Doomstead Diner.
The above link will take you to the "Community Owned Doomstead" thread in the Doomstead Diner's forum. Where the idea was born.